Dear Blog

My baby a week before she got sick

My baby a week before she got sick

I have not forgotten you, nor abandon you. I am just taking a break from this makeshift world that I created for myself.

You know that you have always been my bestfriend. My greatest listener. You just listen to my keyboard and document everything. You never complain. Not once did I hear you complain about the bullshits/tantrums/blabbers and all that I send your way.

Right now, I am just here. Facing the real world away from you, away from my laptop. There is just too much now for me to handle that I want to tell you that I will be back real soon.

I got my permanent contract. I went on training for the new project. I am now working for a totally different line of work. Preparing for one of the greatest events of my life, very very busy with being a housekeeper and a partner, and now – Zoë was very ill for the past few days, is recovering, but is still not ok.

She is back to her normal self little by little everyday. But today, she had a lot of bouts of diarrhea again.

I think we really have to take her to the doctor. But this time, we will be asking for a real doctor and not that unprofessional bitch who kept on insisting that we give Zoë 6 paracetamols per day. When I asked her if that was ok – 6 paracetamols per day – she answered in her “very good English” that she only understands: “What would you want her? Better or not?”

The day before yesterday when we went to the the clinic of the family doctor, she was the same physician who attended to my child and said that she cannot find anything and that paracetamol is ok. When I asked “Is there no other medication? Just that?”, she looked at me causing my mother-in-law to translate it for her in Dutch. She then replied to my mother-in-law (in Dutch), “Yeah, I understood what she said. My English is very good.”

And the next day she can’t even find the equivalent English word for “cheek”. (I don’t know how she said it in Dutch. Armand translated it for her).

I am just a worried-sick mama. My family is not here. I wish my grandmother is here for she knows everything. But she is also too old now, so I think it is ok. I wish my Tita Pinky is here so she can tell me what not or what to do.

I am blessed still, for my mother-in-law loves my Zoë so much – that like me, she will conquer hell for my daughter.

I will be back, dear blog.

Cherry Mae


2 thoughts on “Dear Blog

  1. thank you mahal kong pamangkin;, in which according to your tito den all i have is favoritism. he said that you are my favorite pamangkin compared to all others. thanks for trusting me w/ all my payo to whatever doubts you wish to be i wish that i can help you too w/ your task in taking care of your little princess. perfect time na sana this time if you’re only a mile away from me, i will wholeheartedly take care of zoe, since accdng to your tito den baka bakla daw si deniv bakit hanggang ngayon ayaw pa nila ni zao mag asawa para mabigyan din kami ng apo of our own..hehe! don’t worry too much if zoe had a fever its but normal when a baby is teething. just give paracetamol evry 4hrs and have a sponge bath. relax hwag padala sa takot. bat parang mga bobo ang mga medical practicioners dyan. just what had happen when you gave birth to zoe.. for me its the fault of the doctor. … thanks God….zoe was able to be w/ you now… .. God bless you all the way..

    • Hi Tita!! Haha, am glad at favoritism po kayo and ako favorite nyo! Dapat lang no, ako kaya pinakapanganay! Haha! Tita, just really want to say thank you po for taking care of Nur and Divine, and now to Anging. We might not have the parents that we have expected to take care of us, but with you and Tito Den, oks na, fights na – although in a perfect world, we would have really wanted our parents to be there for us.
      Now that I am Zoë’s mama, I see the world now totally different. Suddenly it stopped being about me all the time, but now like everything is for her. I wish po talaga na may jeep na dumadaan from Malpertuisstraat to Banga Bante, then adyan kami palagi ng apo nyo and you can help us see her through as she grows.
      Love you Tita! Maybe Deniv and Zao are still not seeing themselves as parents. It will come po. You know na mga modern na tao ngayon, haha, lalo na those with careers – sometimes they see having babies differently. I mean, they want that they are not only financially stable, but also emotionally and spiritually ready to be parents!
      Say hi to our favorite Tito Dencio for me. Will mention the two of you in our wedding here! Love you both po! Mwah!

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